Michael Jackson's Memorial

*sigh*

that was alot to handle. i'm gonna be honest, i broke down and cried more times than i can count on one hand. at first, i couldn't for the life of me understand why i was crying.

then it hit me: i hadn't accepted that MJ had passed on yet.

i mean, of course i acknowledged it verbally, but for some reason, my brain hadn't really processed it yet. seeing his gold-plated coffin amongst those beautiful floral arrangements struck a serious chord in me.

some of the performances and speeches contributed to my blubbering as well. now, everyone's speech (well, almost) were special in their own way. however, my favorites were brooke shields, paris jackson, and marlon jackson. berry gordy's was waaay too long.

as for performances, stevie wonder gets the #1 spot, hands down. his performance of "never dreamed you'd leave in summer" and "they won't go when i go" moved me to straight up crocodile tears. usher too, he kept it together till the very end with "gone too soon".

at the very bottom unexpectantly was mimi herself, mariah carey, performing "i'll be there". i mean, f all songs, this should have been easiest for her to break down, especially since she covered it on an album!. i swear, if it werent for trey lorenz, that performance would have been a disaster.

there was one thing i was glad of: i had heard yesterday that the kids were supposed to be wearing masks to the service. that would have just been too much. im glad the world got to officially see these kids, and that they no longer have to hide for protection. they have their father protecting him with their spirit.